'quiet moments' seem intentional, relaxing, a space to calm down. a 'no noise moment' is an instance of respite in this house that is too close, too loud, and too full of voices that don't care about the others.
sometimes I wonder if I will understand these posts two years after I write them. I'm at home for the first time since I left to live in Toronto, my grandmother is visiting, and there is marriage talk all the time but none of it is directed towards me yet. Advantages of being a student and looking like I am still 15, I guess.
Food is a chore, alone and quiet time is a luxury, the bathroom is anxiety, and gorintaaku gets applied on your fingers and toes with care. There is no mindspace to think but everything is swirling anyway.
sometimes I wonder if I will understand these posts two years after I write them. I'm at home for the first time since I left to live in Toronto, my grandmother is visiting, and there is marriage talk all the time but none of it is directed towards me yet. Advantages of being a student and looking like I am still 15, I guess.
Food is a chore, alone and quiet time is a luxury, the bathroom is anxiety, and gorintaaku gets applied on your fingers and toes with care. There is no mindspace to think but everything is swirling anyway.
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